For years after retiring from the NFL, I battled what I thought were just the scars of a tough career—memory loss, anxiety, rage, and a loss of self. Like many former athletes, I tried everything modern medicine offered: brain scans, hyperbaric chambers, medications—but something deeper was broken.

What I didn’t know then was that I was fighting not only brain trauma from years of head injuries but also a spiritual disconnection that no prescription could fix.

In this powerful conversation with Bryan Hubbard and Aubrey Marcus, I share the most transformative chapter of my life: my journey with ibogaine and 5-MeO-DMT—two powerful plant medicines that helped me reclaim my mind, my body, and my spirit.

Key Takeaways from the Podcast:

  • Facing the Darkness: I open up about the fear I felt before my first ibogaine journey, terrified it wouldn’t work after everything else had failed.

  • Reclaiming My Life: Ibogaine gave me the space to revisit memories, release guilt, and truly see the love in my life that I’d lost sight of.

  • The Power of 5-MeO-DMT: The next day, 5-MeO-DMT took me deeper—confronting the belief that I was a burden, and bringing me face-to-face with unconditional love.

  • Healing Beyond the Individual: This work isn’t just about me. It’s about breaking cycles of trauma for families, for veterans, for athletes, and for anyone suffering.

  • Advocating for Change: Alongside Bryan Hubbard and leaders across Texas, I’m fighting to make this medicine available to more people through the Texas Ibogaine Initiative (HB 3717).

Watch the Full Episode Below

Support the Cause:

If you live in Texas, please consider reaching out to your state representatives to support the Texas Ibogaine Initiative. This work can save lives.

For those interested in learning more about plant medicine therapies for athletes, visit Athletes for Care.

Closing Thoughts:

I’ve lived the nightmare that so many former players and veterans face. But I’ve also experienced the hope and healing that comes when you reconnect with the truth of who you are. If my story can help even one person take that first step toward healing, it’s worth sharing.